It would be a lie if I said I wasn't a little sad that my dad is leaving today. But, it is sooooooo time. I hope he can live on his own on the ranch but I am doubtful. I know he misses mom and all her things but he needs to be here. He needs to be with family,he just doesn't need to live with me LOL
Last night he took us all out to dinner at one of his favorite places, Benihana's. The kids had never been before so that was a real treat, they thoroughly enjoyed themselves. I love watching kids reactions to something new. It makes it new and fun again for me. When something you like gets to be routine bring a kid with you, I guarantee your entire perspective will change.
Saturday is triathlon day well pep rally day, we get to meet Texan cheerleaders and football players and celebrity kids? so great for the kids I am sure it will be a blast! I am so proud of Zoe for doing this, she just wants to do it for the fun of doing it so she can say, I have done a triathlon. I love her for that. She is one awesome little girl.
Tonight my life goes back to some assemblance of normal, no more 3 adults barking orders and kids running wall eyed because they are so confused. Just torn between wanting my life back and wanting what is best for my Dad. I just don't see him succeeding out there alone. We (my siblings and I) all think that dad just need to buy a condo in a retirement community and enjoy the rest of his days around friends and family not holed up on the Ranch as a hermit. Part of me hopes we are wrong, part of me fears we are right. One thing I know for sure is I love my dad I miss my mom more than words can say and I just want a happy medium so dad can live out his days in peace.
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